i'm getting more and more frustrated. my cosmetics are running out soon. tis mth's hp bill is gonna be "huge" again. i nd a new bag. i nd new heels. i nd new flats. my earnings seems so small when it comes to all these "paying" process. how i wish i'm juz a carefree taitai. ARGHZ!!! MONEY!!!

finally. finally. finally i dun hav to go bk to hg mall to wk! the 3 long days have passed! wking there nearly killed me! i loathe the supervisor there la. fancy putting up a black face everyday except to customers.

the weekly schedule for full time is out. Joan juz called me. she said lady boss wanted to scheduled me 55hrs a week which means same wking hrs wif dem but i cant wk 55hrs at the moment la cos reali too tiring. hmm mayb few mths later aft i get used to it? haha. but one thing for sure is, i wan to earn more money! haha.

so i'm free from wk this 2 days. today went for movie wif dear. we went marina square to watch Jack Neo's movie. it's a nice show. damn funny. i nv expect Fann Wong can be so MAN eh. haha. her acting is impressive. there's many more movies i wanna watch! hahahahahaha!!!

tml is another free day. i think i better stay at hm n go nowhere. i have not much money to spend and i'm still sick haha.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR!

okay i noe it's a little late to greet now but CNY hasn't pass. haha. i've not been blogging for "years" i think. i was busy wking, shopping, par-toh-ing.

CNY eve
went ah ma's hse for dinner. actu mum planned to eat at hm but auntie called and wan us to go but thk god mum haven prepare the food. haha. aft dinner, drank some whisky and guess wat..............? yeah, i was drank. hehe. i think i reali cant take alcohol la. haha. soon aft the dinner n some chit-chattin, we went hm. dear came to my hse to acc me aft he had his dinner wif his relatives.

CNY day 1
went 2nd auntie's hse, tot i could c hanson but as usual, biao jie was too late n we cant wait for her cos we nd to go 2 more places. went ah ma n uncle's hse. this CNY isn't tt fun. cos lesser ppl went, lesser laughter. aft all visits, i went dear's hse for dinner wif his family. aft tt, we headed hm cos baby hanson was at my hse!! haha!! he reali grown up ALOT! he's extremely PLAYFUL now. heng he can clicks well wif dear haha. hanson is so cute! he kisses ppl when he's HAPPY! haha!!! he snatches away my biscuit, he grabbed dear's cell-phone! isnt is playful but cute? his laughter is something tt money cant buy! i simply love this little boy!!!

CNY day 2
went PS for movie wif dear. actu we wanted to watch Jack Neo's show but the tickets were selling fast so we watched Ghost Rider. a good show! aft the movie, we headed bk hm for dinner, cos mum prepared steamboat. in short, we've been eating steamboat for continuosly 3 days!


today is a boring day. i was being temporary transferred to hg mall for 3 days. but juz onli 2 hrs at hg mall, i feel lik crying. there's almost totally no one walks into the shop for hrs! i was damn BORED! i called bk to CP, i told reb tt i was bored but she said she's too bz to tok to me. i envy them. i miss joan's lame-ness, reb's "scolding", eunice's accompany and linda's blurness. i miss them all! i swear, aft these 3days, I'LL NV GO BK TO HG MALL TO WK! can i? haha.

today all putlets wking hrs is from 12 to 8. when i walked out of my shop, someone tapped my hand, i tot it's my fren or whoever so cos lotsa my frens stay at HG. but i saw dear when i turned ard! i tot he was supposed to end wk at 9.30pm. he told me he could close shop at 7.30pm but nv tel me cos he wanted to "surprise" me. but frankly, i was feeling happy deep in my heart la though i denied it haha. and i was reali shocked =)


my beloved dear, pls dun forget what u've promised me. i hope all these will not turned out to be empty promises =)

i've settled everything. the paper work. but not my mood. everyone is stopping me, i noe i noe. i noe ni men wei wo hao. my dearest xiuling rabbit jia feng ivy shirley kim yen, thks for persuading me. i noe definitely there'll be one day i'll be deeply regret for not continuing my studies so suddenly. but i think this is the best way for me now.

dear fren, though to u, wat u said might juz be a joke or even nth, but to me, it reali hurts me lots. even now, the pain is still there. frens for years, if i ever been a lousy fren to u, den i think the onli thing i can do is apologise. u can say i'm sensitive, and yes i am. but the words were reali hurting, it somehow relate to my pride. u said u called me b4 aft the incident but i didnt receive any of it. hopefully time will heels everything.

my days weren't going well and smooth. dad did not tok to me for nearly a week. to him, not matter wat happen, not matter how stress i'm, i MUST continue my studies until the day i can comfortablely sit on a office chair. how can i seek for his forgiveness?